Thursday, July 23, 2009

Johnnycake Jog

I'm sitting at my desk kind of with a nervous twitch from the coffee overload, staring out at the rain, and a small kitten skiddishly making its way into the office for some cat food. Yes, we feed the strays. A couple of them come and nap on the chairs we have in the office. Sometimes it feels like a zoo with the dog (I bring my dog to work with me).

Anyway, business is still really sucky. Manufacturing for small business is in no hurry to pick up and we have come to terms with that. We are on 4 days a week and are tossing around ideas of who to lay off and what to do. Argh. It's such a depressing situation to be in. I have daily headaches which I'm sure work is contributing to. I look at our employees and can't bear to think of who to lay off before who. Sigh. Trying to make lemonade out of lemons or whatever.....trying to keep a positive spin on things.

So last weekend I ran the Johnneycake Jog which is a larger local race that brings out a lot of fast runners. I usually love it because of the competition....not because of the course, believe me. It can be fast, but it never really is for me (except for last year). I went into it to have fun since I'm not fast enough to be competitive at this point. My sister in law in newer to running and came along to run. Jason came along to watch and my parents and brother showed up...suprise!!! I was excited to have the family there.

I met up with a few of my running friends and we did a warm up. I felt a little tired and sluggish, but that can be normal. I did a little stretching and chatting and got to the start line. The gun went off and off we went. I felt like I was running fast.....but I had a feeling it wasn't all that fast. It just felt a little more forced then I would have liked. Went through the first mile in 6:29...booo. I thought I would either have felt better running a 6:29 or have felt the way I did running 6:15-19 or something. I didn't really know what to expect I guess. So I thought I kept up the pace pretty well the second mile. I was around 13:21 which sounds crappy but the second mile is so darn slow all the time. Not sure if it's long. I kept of trucking along and trying to catch people ahead of me. 3rd mile came around at 19:40's. We made the turn on the long, boring last stretch. I was feeling pretty tired but kept going. I knew I wasn't fast, but I didn't want to wuss out on giving it what I had. 4th mile was around 26 something. The last mile was a tough one, especially the last 800m. I usually have a good kick and have really good strength at the end of a race, but I just didn't have it today. A couple girls I went back and forth with during the race pulled ahead. I HATE that!!! I just couldn't go with them. I saw the clock and the finish. 32:53....15th overall. Actually, not bad....especially since I didn't feel so great at any point of the race. It was what I told myself I would be happy with at this point. Last year I was 3rd with 30:53 so you can't help but compare....but I got with reality, and over it and was happy.

I found my friends and ran a cooldown with them. I had a killer headache but it went well. No one sounded like they felt all that awesome either even though they had some speedy times. I have to admit, my 5K I ran on the 4th of July felt much much better then today. O well.

So, I wanted to mention how proud I was of my sister in law Michelle. She got out there and ran a good 5 miles. She was worried about finishing or being last...but she finished just fine and wasn't close to last! I love when people pick up running and keep at it. I can't wait to see her progress. I'm sure it's not easy with a toddler and baby.

So, that was my weekend. We had a delicious breakfast and called it a day and headed home. I am thinking about running a 5K this weekend just because it's 1 mile from my house. I'm not sure if I am really going to do it or not. It's going to be on a whim if I decide to do so. I guess I'm trying to squeeze in as much faster running as I can before I devote my body to another cause for a while :)

My runs have been going well for the most part. Right now I'm having odd issues with sleeping at night and headaches. I'm not sure if it's underlying stress (who me? stressed?) or just being tired. I eventaully fall asleep, but the headaches are annoying. They are the tension headache type...not the stabbing type. I'm not too's just annoying. Maybe I should lay off the coffee. I notice I'm more edgy and get into long rants about certain topics that set off my trigger.....don't even get me started with the medical arena....that was todays rant.

Hopefully, next week will be a good week at work (hoping...but not holding my breath) and running goes smoothly. Still planning on staying around 50 per week easy with maybe a little quick run thrown in if I don't run the race this weekend.

Weekly Rundown:

M- Bike 40 Min
T- 8m
W- 7m
Th- 8m
F- 8m
Sat- 6m
Sun- 10m (5m race)

Total: 47 Miles

Monday, July 20, 2009

Trail Running

So, I forgot to post this from last week.......I will have another post later this week. I'm determined to keep up with this blog!!!!

Last weekend was a blast! I volunteered Saturday at Muddy Paws. The day started out early and humid. I ended up being at the water stop at 2.8 mile & 7.8 mile on the course. This was a 5 mile loop course with the option of people running 1 or 2 loops. There was a 2 mile race with your dog too. Awesome! There were 6 of us working the water stop. I didn't expect it to be so much fun....and so buggy. I was eaten alive, but it was well worth it.

It's nice to get a different perspective on racing as a volunteer. It's funny when people run by and you recognize them from something other then running. There were a couple people I saw from years ago...that were never runners...running!! I must get easy amused. I love when people "convert" to running.

So, after the race, we decided to get some miles in and run the course a couple times. I am not in the trail running "business" but I do love running on them from time to time. I tend not to venture out on them as much as I'd like to since I'm not sure where the heck I'm going. This run was tough! Kendall Hills, I remember from college, is very tough...but I forgot how tough! We were planning on 10, but the skies opened up and dumped a big storm on us. To make a very long (and lost) story short, we ended up with 9. I was wet, exhausted, and fine with that for the day. Nothing like running up the largest peak at the park in the middle of torrential rain , thunder, and lightening. At least I had my buddy E with me!!!

The next day I ran with the group of people I volunteered with. We started from Boston Store and went out and back on the Buckeye Trail. WOW! That was tough. It was 10 miles and I was trying not to die on the run. If we weren't running over fallen trees, roots, or river...we were hiking (literally) up hills and endless stairs. It was such a good time though. I was so exhausted when I got home. Oddly exhausted. I wasn't sure if it was just from the runs and/or lack of sleep...or other factors. All I know is I was BEAT!

Jason was out of town for the weekend so he wasn't around to witness my pathetic butt. I have lots of work to do I guess. So, the plan is to try and get on the trails once a week with a group. I hope it works out. There is something nice about being out in nature without all the it's a killer of a workout.

Up next weekend is the Johnnycake Jog. We'll see what happens there. Looking forward to having fun with family and friends!!

Weekly Rundown:

M: 7.5 M
T: Off - Tired
W: 8m
Th: 8m
F: 8m
Sat: 9m (Trails)
Sun: 10m (Trails)

Total: 50.5 Miles

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

4th of July

What a week! We decided to shut down our business for the week, last week, since A) there was a holiday B) we are slow C) the employees can use up some vacation time since we are slow. All in all, it was nice....but I have to admit I would much rather be working overtime because of having too much work rather then taking time off due to a weak backlog. What can you do though?

So, last week I was home. Had lots to do and the time flew by. One thing that really encompassed my week was our annual 4th of July BBQ. We do it every year on the day Hudson has their fabulous fireworks display. It really is amazing for a small suburb display....and our house has a front row seat. Great times. This year seemed more hectic leading up to the party and more crazy the day of. We had enough food to feed a poor country and enough pop and beer to fill Lake Erie.

The display was on the 3rd...which meant the annual Hudson Firecracker 5K was the morning after. Argh! I was iffy about running it due to the fact that our party was the night before...and I wouldn't be close to competitive. I got over the competitive part and told myself I just gotta go out and do what I can....but I wasn't sure how I would do based on the crazy week and lack of sleep.

Once our party was over, Jason and I stayed up until 2:30am cleaning up. My really good friend stayed the night with her twins....whom I'm the God mommy of one. Everyone was willing to wake up and go to the race if I decided to run.

That morning, I woke up and was totally beat, but decided to get out and enjoy the 4th. Jackie was up with the girls...and I peeled my husband out of bed. We all headed out to the race and it was a blast as usual. It was so nice to have my husband, friend, and twins at the finish line.

(Post Race with the twins...their first 5k experience!!! This was the best shot we could get with everything going on.)

As far as the race goes, I was really happy with the effort. It's a hilly course too. The one thing I was disappointed with was the mile markers were not marked so I wasn't quite sure where we were at. I decided to latch onto a group of high school aged girls most of the race. I felt pretty good and went with the flow. I told myself if I felt good enough, I could work the last big hill and work it in the last quarter mile or so downhill. I did just that. I passed up most of the girls on the hills, passed one more coming in...but didn't quite catch the first girl. That's okay though. I came through 2nd place overall and with a time of 19:29. Not bad. I felt really good too considering everything. My lungs definitely had the burn from running fast, but other then that, nothing felt too weird. I'm so glad I decided to get my groggy butt to the start line.

The next morning I felt really great and did my 10 miles. Good sign. I plan on running a few races and see what I can do for a little while. I'm not committing to anything or starting any great training...but I'll tell you, nothing beats getting out on race morning and doing your best and being competitive within your means. It's a fantastic feeling that is hard to describe to those who don't do it...or get it.

This weekend I'll be volunteering at the Muddy Paws Race and am excited about. There will be people racers and doggie great is that?!? I had plans on volunteering at a bunch of races when I found out I was expecting.....and I plan on still keeping up with that thought even though things changed. It's just good to be out in the scene.

Weekly Rundown:

M- 7m
T- 8.5m
W- 6.5m
Th- 7m
F- 8m
Sat- 5m (5K Race)
Sun- 10m

Total: 52m

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Happy July

It's a new month and I'm still alive! So the last few weeks have been crazy. It's one of those times in your life when things really do change. I'm not quite sure if it's just all the swirl of emotions and feelings, but I have a new perspective on a lot of things.

So, I'm ready to move on and am really trying hard to keep things in perspective and be logical about everything. It's sad not to be pregnant like I thought I was suppose to be at this point. You get used to the idea very quickly and start making plans....and get more attached then you'd ever think. I didn't think I was as attached to my pregnancy until it was gone. It's a very surreal feeling. I never thought I could miss something I never knew or really had. Very deep sense of loss. I thought I'd be more upset with losing 13 weeks and having a wrench thrown in the plans, then having a feeling of loss. Interesting.

With that said, this is so much more common then I had ever thought. I thought people get pregnant and have babies....and that's it. Every once in a while something happens....but not me. Yeah right. Seems like every other person I know has had something like this happen. People just don't talk about it. It's pretty creepy actually. According to my doctor, I'm pretty lucky in that my bad pregnancy was a random act of nature that doesn't happen to the same person twice very often. My body is very healthy so that is a good thing....I suppose. I never knew that your body could be pregnant for so long after "losing" a pregnancy so soon. Supposedly, my pregnancy was doomed from the very beginning. It just took this long to figure it out. I never had any symptoms or clues. Weird.

I was very sad with a great sense of loss.....then lonely. The waves of emotions came on strong and would quickly come and go. Thank goodness for Jason. He is an amazing husband and support. I know he had a very hard time with the situation as well. Most recently, I had this anger thing going on. It was surprising to me. This very, very strong sense of anger would come on....and I wasn't really angry at anyone or anything specifically. I'm thinking it had to do with my follow up visit....among other little things. I think I just didn't want to deal with the "old pregnancy" again. It kept me from moving on I guess. I was super annoyed with having my through the roof blood pressure checked that day....and having to step on the scale to see my rapid weight loss. I knew I lost quite a bit of weight in 2 weeks since my appetite was next to nothing. That was actually the worst part.

So, anyway, my doctor came in and we talked for like 15 minutes....mostly about running. Turns out she is a runner! Not overly competitive, but a runner nonetheless. It really made my day to have this conversation. I walked out feeling pretty good....but still different from the person who I was a few months before. I'm sure I'm much better in certain ways....mostly with my outlook and perspective.

It's funny how life can do funny thing to you and funny times. Just roll with the punches and you'll get to where to need to be.

On the running front....I'm back to about 50 miles per week and feeling pretty darn good. I've been running just about everyday. It's a great stress relief and keep me even keel. I plan on running a few races for fun to see where I am....maybe throw in a couple tempo/fartlek type runs for good measure. In the mean time....we'll see what the future brings.

I plan on getting back to my normal posts from now on.......