Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Winter is Here

I think Winter time is here for the most part in Northeast Ohio. I think we may have an occasional nice day, but for the most part, old man winter is here. It was 60 degrees on Friday and I did my run in shorts, this morning it snowed so much overnight, I had to run on the treadmill. Joy. I must admit though, I catch up all kinds of news when I run on the good old mill.

I noticed this year, I have a much better appreciation of cold weather running. I dreaded it in the past. I mean I absolutely could not stand the thought of running in the cold. This summer I noticed myself longing for cold, winter runs. WHAT?!? There is some sort of peace and solitude with the chill in the air, light snowflakes kissing your skin (I'm saying LIGHT snow...not LAKE effect!), and the serenity of the quiet before the world makes up for their day. I feel like the only person in the world, just running along checking things out. On almost every run, I keep tabs on what I would take pictures of. I really am going to get a cheap, small camera and snap some pics. I think it would make a nice reflection at the end of the year.

Anyway, my runs are going really well. I'm getting most of them in in the morning. I'm just under 40 miles per week at the moment. Working on lots of core and starting some light lifting. I take 1 day off and 1 day cross training too. I'm working on getting more of a butt. My butt is flat and pathetic. I need a little more there, so I'm working on that too.

On other fronts, Jason had an interview with one of the large local companies for a research position....and.....he just got a phone call saying they decided to go with another candidate. Sigh. He's sad....I know he is. No matter what, I know it a blow to your ego. Even though you know it's kind of a crap shoot, it still sucks to know you didn't get picked. We've all been through that. My only question it...what OTHER candidate? Seriously? His area of research is highly specialized and only a hand full of people in the country work in similar areas. This particular position was an exact match for him. Who knows. Their loss. He's extremely smart & talented....especially in the mathematics department (I'm allowed to toot his horn :)) I just tell him he'll find the right match, and it will be where he needs to be. It may take a little while, and searching, but it will work out. It always does. I just hope we don't have to move anywhere. O well.....move on with your head confidently up high. He has an interview is another local (smaller start up) research company Monday. Updates to follow.

The Philly marathon is this upcoming weekend. That was the marathon I thought about doing. I'm just fine with not doing it. A cheese steak would be great though! Man o man, the Richmond people had a heck of a run. It was hot, windy, and plain old crappy. I read up on E-Speeds blog and it sounded brutal! Sucks when that happens for a marathon.

Thanksgiving is next week...which means....TURKEY TROT!!!!! and turkey....and pie.....It' my favorite holiday of the year!

Monday, November 3, 2008


It was Jason and my 5th Wedding Anniversary (October 25th)!!! Whohoo!! Can't believe it's been 5 years already. These are the beautiful flowers they delivered to our house. They were from a flower shop in downtown Hudson called Stems. I was really impressed with these.
We had a lovely dinner at Ken Stewart's. Calamari, Ahi Tuna, & Port. Great way to celebrate. My husband rocks!

Speaking of the Port. I'm such a lightweight, that the TINY glass of Port after dinner caused a massive headache for the run the following morning. What is wrong with me? This thing was like 5 ounces or something. I have to say though, it ended up being a very nice run. Heh!

So in the running life.....well, it's pretty low key. I'm loving it though. I already am getting excited about training and racing in the spring. That is a very good sign. I noticed that there are so many BEAUTIFUL things I see when I run that I wish I could capture on camera. That got me thinking....perhaps I could find a mini camera to take with me on my runs and take some pics. That would give me lots to talk about. I think it would be kind of cool. Just a thought.

I also decided I'm going to start posting a few more pictures. Pictures are fun....yeah? Let's start off our lovely pets (our kids for the moment)....Stewie (dog) and Einstein (cat). They got a little bored during the New York Marathon and took a snooze.
I thought it was exciting anyway. What a motivation. It made me want to lace up and go run.....

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Columbus Half

The Columbus Half Marathon was this past Sunday. Overall, it was what I would have expected...but nothing I would have hoped for. It was the type of race that would describe my year.....just okay. Kind of Blah. I'm not upset or overly disappointed, but I hoped maybe I could pull off something I wasn't expecting. Overall results were 1:27:57....16th overall Female.

Jason and I left for Columbus Saturday afternoon. We stopped by his sisters home to drop off the sugar cookies for a party they were having....then we dropped off our dog at my In-Laws. All this took a while as we can never just seem to stop somewhere quickly. I figured we were fine. I kept saying, "As long as I get to the expo by 6:50pm" (it closed at 7:00pm with no race day pick up).
So we make the hike down to Columbus. We stopped for a late lunch and found our hotel. We stayed at a Hyatt about 20 minutes north of Downtown since everything was booked. I must say, it was a very nice hotel, with a kick butt TV. My parents met us down there....but had to stay at the Motel 6 across the street since my dad never believes in planning ahead. Our hotel was booked up. My mom had some choice words in describing their room. It was hilarious!
I looked at my watch and it was 6:00pm. Uh-oh. We better get to the expo. Jason and I made our way down. I had direction on how to get to the start line. If I recall from 2005, the start line was near the expo. I was so wrong. I don't know if they changed it, or I was mistaken. We found the start....no expo. We drove around, got turned around, went down one way street. Not good. My watch read 6:30. I wasn't saying much....Jason wasn't waying much. The second I opened my mouth....we got in an instant argument. It was my fault I didn't get directions and made a stupid assumption.....but I guess I was making him nervous by not yelling about it...so I think we wanted me to yell or something. Just as we were yelling...we came across runner people with bags. Whohoo. Everything was okay. 6:40pm. We found parking. 6:45pm. We got inside the expo 6:50. I grabbed my stuff.....6:55pm. I can't believe we cut it that close. I'm a crazy planner in travel race circumstances...but perhaps since I've been to Columbus a million times, I was too laxed about it.
So in a nut shell, I got my stuff. #3013.

That night we ate dinner, watched knocked up, and went to bed. I made a wake up call, set the alarm, and set my phone alarm. I have a triple alarm system going when I travel too.

Race morning, I was up 1 minute before any of the alarms went off. Felt pretty decent. We drove up, found parking, and I warmed up. All was good.

Got to the start line 2 minutes before the race (geeze...what was my problem with cutting everything so close!!). It was cold...but perfect for a longer race. I had gloves and shorts on with a long sleeve under my race shirt. The gun went off and off we went.

The first mile was a 6:44. I had a feeling I would pretty much keep up this pace. No faster. I just had a feeling with how I felt. It wasn't hard...but it wasn't effortless (if that makes any sense). The first 2 miles I couldn't feel my legs from the cold...but they warmed up after that. I hummed along with a group of people and kept my eye on certain women to keep me motivated. I came through 5 miles around 33:25. Again, it was fine...but I felt kind of worn out. I actually picked it up for mile 6 and ran a 6:30.....and maintained upper 6:30's for a while. Mile 10 was 1:06:55 or so.....which put me pretty darn even from 5. I kind of really wanted to be done then. The last 3 miles actually seemed to come quickly though. My hands were getting pretty cold from the couple liquids I took. They spilled on my gloves and got them freezing cold. Mile 12 had a hill going toward the finish...which was a downhill finish. I picked up the last mile...but missed the split since my hands were too frozen and must not have hit down on my watch hard enough to get the split. I saw mile 13 was 1:27:02. I was like "lets move it and get under 1:28 at least." I did both. 1:27:57. I felt fine when I finished. I was happy to be done. Ran a 2 mile cooldown immediately and called it a day....and a "racing season."

Overall, I felt pretty complacent about the race. This year was just off. It wasn't terrible...just not great. There isn't any one thing I can pinpoint. I was injured in the spring and sick a couple times...but that shouldn't have killed my whole year. I noticed many of the paces seemed a bit harder that I thought for workouts....and I was much more worn out then normal. I had too many days I was just totally beat up and needed to chill out. I changed up my training a bit, and tried not to take much time off in the winter, keep up my mileage, and start off with some interval training and work into the longer stuff. Something just didn't jive. I had a good 5 miler with a 30:54 PR.....and a bunch of 18:40/18:50's 5k's....but that was about it for me. Crim sucked....and the Columbus Half was okay. I thought my training was going pretty well and I could turn it around leading up to the Akron Half....but I got sick....and the rest was history I guess. I didn't get my mojo back after that. I didn't really look forward to my runs leading to Columbus...and didn't get all that excited about the Half either. I know when it's time for a break...and I needed to pull the plug now. If I'm not excited to race....it's time.

I also realize that I wasn't quite ready to get back into all the training as soon as I did. I forced it a little too much. Just because I thought I should be ready to race and train, didn't mean I really was. I probably took on a little too much at one time. With work, my baking venture, and other business stuff I work on...it probably took a little too much of a toll. I notice I get canker sores after the longer races too. I'm wondering if it may be a vitamin thing as well. I'm not making excuses....just thinking about things on paper so I can try and fix whatever was off kelter.

So, I'm taking this week off and already looking forward to some nice runs. I'm going to try and get my system back to normal...and work from there. Perhaps this winter, really work on strength, tempos, and making sure I stay healthy (rest and nutrition).

It's interesting how we as runners know our bodies better then anyone, but always seem to ignore signs. We know they are there...but we find various excuses to ignore them. In the end, the body wins out....every freakin time.

Time for some good old, freezing cold winter running. Some of the nicest, peaceful, prettiest runs take place in the winter....even through the darkness, snow, & sludge. I'm really looking forward to that....along with the post run pancakes. Yum.

Until then, see everyone at the start line next year. I'll be writing about anything interesting that comes up in my runs....there's always something.
Up next is the Akron Thanksgiving Day Race with my brother....who runs once a year on Thanksgiving....with me....or rather, I run with him. It's my favorite "race" of the year.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Weekly Recap

The Columbus Half is on Sunday. It seemed to come rather quickly from the time I decided to do it. Time just flies!

So the question is, am I ready? I guess so. I feel like this year has been a bit off overall, but I feel like I can go out there and do something decent. It would be nice to PR. My PR is 1:25:07...but I'd be happy with a good, strong race. I haven't raced in a while, so we'll see.
I'm kind of stressed out about what to do with my dog since everyone is going to be out of town this weekend. It's always something...isn't it?

This past week has been decent. I can't say wonderful or great, but decent. Ran a mile repeat workout on Friday at the Towpath.
2m w/u
6:22, 6:19, 6:18, 6:19, 6:17, 6:07 (I might be a second off or so from what I put in my log...can't remember exactly)
2m c/d
I ran to each mile marker and jogged around for what I called 400m. I adjusted the longer and shorter mile times. The times were a bit faster then I planned on, but it was a good workout. My legs want to run fast....it has it in them...but I have to watch my HR . It's not like I'm running a mile race or something. I really am curious at what I can run in a longer distance.

Anyway, Saturday was an early slog run. I was tired, but had to get it in early. Sunday was a crappy long run of 16 miles. I felt like I wanted to shoot myself in the foot the entire time so I had a reason to stop. Ha ha. I was just tired and crappy feeling, but I pushed through.
Monday was an easy run...still felt tired and heavy.
Tuesday (yesterday) workout was:
2m w/u
4x1600 (1600 easy)......6:24, 6:25, 6:26, 6:33
1m c/d
I ran on the Pen Glen trails with the 400 meter hill at the end. I intended to run this workout to get me going, without running me into the ground. This is what I came up with. Last mile was a slightly different route...and I got held up for a tiny bit by some people. Felt really good and smooth until the last 400 meters which was to be expected. I felt better then I have, but, I could still feel a little heaviness in the legs going up the hill.
This is a good endurance, strength workout. When I run this particular workout on this course, I can really run it well if I'm fresh. I tend to compare myself to that...but I'm not so chipper right now. I've been eaten up and thrown out on this workout when I've been tired. I was happy with the overall result.
Oh...and a little tidbit on annoying people. I ran past this guy, who I passed like 4 times (since I was running the same loop over and over), insisted on saying something "funny" every time I ran by. "Smile", "You should be more happy", "You'd live longer if you smiled."
I was getting really annoyed. REALLY annoyed. What wrong with "Hello" or"Nice Job?"

So, that was the week. I ran 2 straight weeks of 66 miles. Not bad. The workouts are getting a bit mundane. I'm getting a strong urge to go trail exploring around town. Nice long runs to get lost in. It's that time of the year. I was looking back and realized I have been running since April...workouts and racing...without any real downtime. I need some of that now. I probably won't jump into a marathon this fall. I just want to chill and not worry about splits and mileage. I just love to put on my fall running clothes and get lost int he fall foliage. The smells and chill in the air.....oh I just LOVE it.

I'll have to do my yearly analysis and plan for this winter and next racing year. I do that every year so I can carry it over and keep on learning from myself.

So, in other news, Jason really moving on with his Ph.D. On Monday (the day after the half) he is giving his big presentation to his committee. They will give him some critiques and allow him to keep working on this Thesis...which is coming along nicely. I'm a proud wife :) There are a few good job leads, so we'll see what end up workout out. I don't want to jinx anything.

Until next time....everyone enjoy their fall running...no matter what comes your way!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Bottomless Pit

There is a very interesting phenomena going on with me these days. I get so hungry on my runs. This has happened to me every once in a while during my hormonal time of the month, but for the past week, I've been starving on my runs. I happens about half way through. It doesn't help that I run past a Your's Truly, Perkins, McDonald's, & Italian Restaurant. I could just feel all the energy drain. I could seriously sit on the side of the road and chow down with a box of cereal, throw in some raisins, and cold soymilk. These thoughts to me are odd as I'm used to never even thinking about food until an hour after my runs. Who knows what's going on. I'm just trying to shovel in the food so I keep on truckin along. Maybe I have a hole in my stomach.

In my weekly update....I had a great long run this weekend. I ran 18 miles. At mile 9 I busted out a 6:21, then I stopped at home for a half a banana and Gatorade. I then ran another 9 with mile 18 at 6:22. Everything felt really nice and smooth. The faster miles felt really good too.

Yesterday planned on a Tempo workout, but decided to perhaps do some faster miles. The plan was to run:
2m w/u
8m run (7,7,6:35, 6:30, 6:30, sub 6:30, 7,7)
2m c/d

What actually happened was:
6:54, 6:47. 6:21, 6:22, 6:40, 6:42, 6:46

The first 2 miles were pretty good, but the 2nd was a little too fast. I felt good so it was fine. Then I went into mile 3 where was waaaayyyy too fast. Thought I slowed down mile 4 but it was still too fast. I was going through 800m in 3:07. I stopped after 4 to drop the HR and catch my breath, for about a minute or so, then I thought I would run the 7:00 miles. Those ended up being too fast as well. Stopped after 6 for a minute then ran one more mile at long tempo pace. I don't know what the hell my body was doing. I was so off pace and I tried so hard to keep it right. I guess the good thing was I was running faster then I thought, but I was running too fast to do this workout correctly. I hate when that happens. My body is whacked out with pacing I guess. It's kind of funny to be to be complaining about running too fast, but that is the death of a lot of runners in training and racing. O well, I was pleased overall with the effort. I tried to make up for the fast paces but taking the couple breathers and cutting off the last mile. I just added a mile onto my cooldown.

Hope the Half Marathon pacing goes better. I'm anxious to see how that race pans out. It's been a long while since I've raced. I haven't raced a half in over a year, so I'm exited about it.

The rest of the week I'm planning on some easy runs, a long run with a few harder miles thrown in, and another workout type run.

As far as how I'm feeling these days. Better, but not perfect. I have a very lingering light cough that seems rather random and fake sounding, but it's there. Like a tickle in the back of my throat. My ears have unclogged, my nose has opened up, and my equilibrium is better in tune. I get tired very easily, but that is something I can control with resting well. The only odd thing I still have is if I get really tired, I get nauseous as well. That's getting better to each day. Maybe I should have went to the doctor last week, but since I'm stubborn and a doctor hater, I figured since I'm getting much better, I'm okay. This was a nasty, stubborn bug. That, or my immune system sucks to no end. I know tons of people who are pretty sick, so something is going around. Rest, rest, rest.

Last week, after my death of a Tempo run, I got a massage the next day which was glorious, but I had to skip my run as I thought I was getting sick again....and had a terrible cough. The next day I had a vitamin enriched, immune system boosting smoothie which made me feel much better. I think having some extra calories in my system, with the vitamins, along with the 10 hours of sleep I got Friday night, helped a lot. So anyway, I think I kicked this thing for the most part.

Speaking of vitamins, I used to take them religiously. Regular vitamins made me REALLY sick, so I had to take the old people vitamins. I know it sound odd, but my mom has the same problem. Last year, I took some Woman's One a Day, thinking maybe I was over the whole getting sick from vitamin thing. That proved to be a bad idea. I almost passed out and was sick for 2 days after 2 weeks of taking that stuff. From then on, I haven't taken anything. It's been a whole year. I wonder if I should be taking something. I try and eat well, and eat lots of fortified foods, fruits, veggies, & enhanced drinks, but I'm not sure if I'm getting everything that I need. I just wonder what other long distance runners do. I've been sick 4 times in the past year, and go through periods of getting really exhausted, but I attribute that to having much more going on and not enough sleep. So, I don't know. Just a thought I have from time to time.

Anyway, anyone running the Towpath Marathon Chicago Marathon, or any other race, good luck, have fun, & stay healthy!!!

Friday, October 3, 2008

It's Falltime

This is my FAVORITE time of year!!! I don't know any runners who don't just love fall. Too bad it doesn't last long. Take what you can get.

This past week started out good, but got a little hairy. I was feeling good Monday, then Tuesday I just felt okay, then Wednesday, I proceeded to try and do my normal 8 mile tempo run at the park. I told myself if I didn't feel okay, then I'd cut it short at 6 or something. Well, the warm up went really good...I kind of wanted to keep on running on the trails and explore. I should have went on my instinct.

I started my tempo pace and ran a 6:47 feeling pretty decent considering everything the past week. The 2nd mile was a 6:44 and was okay too. I noticed the 3rd mile my legs were starting to feel heavy and my HR was starting to shoot up pretty good. I told myself I would run 4 miles at this pace then do an easy 1 mile, then run the other 3 at tempo pace. 3rd mile was 6:44 which surprised me a bit. The 4th mile is when it all came apart. I felt like death, my ears were getting clogged, my head hurt, & I got dizzy. I can get past a lot of things, but getting dizzy always freaks me out. That is not a good thing. I decided to finished that mile and call it a day. By the way, that mile was 6:49. When I finished, I was going to run my cool down right away, but I felt like I was going to pass out. Seriously. I got scared and sat down on the side of the trail. Maybe I was stupid for trying to do this workout. I figured I'd be okay. It's always easier to see how things should be in hind site. I've been sick before, but this thing I have just doesn't seem to want to leave my system.

Anyway, I got my act together and ran 2 easy miles and plopped down on a bench and watch and whole slew of deer eating from a large field. It was rather nice. They looked at me and didn't seem to mind. It was kind of a neat moment.

So Thursday I felt just awful. I was worried I did something to myself from the run the day before. My cough started up again and I felt pukey all day. I was starving too. After lunch, I just kept on eating throughout the afternoon...and I felt much better. I made my way home and on the way stopped at Vertical Runner and picked up my running shoes that were on order....along with a b-day gift for mom. I love that store.
I got home and decided to take the day off and go for my scheduled massage...which was wonderful. I felt much better.

This morning I went for a 6 mile run in the dark & rain and enjoyed every bit of it even though I was still a little tired. My cough just refuses to completely leave.

I feel like I'm seriously falling apart. I'm keeping everything in context and know that thing like this happen, but it's a bit annoying. Oh...and I was thinking about all those people that run through being sick. Seriously? How do you all do that? I don't consider myself overly weak when it comes to things like that, but I can't function much as a runner when I'm sick. The few times I tried to run when sick or injured just never, EVER, worked out. I guess we are all programmed different. Maybe my immune system sucks too. Who knows. I'm not trying to fight it though. I'm trying to work with it.

Anyway, yes, it is fall....and I am intending to enjoy every bit of it. I'm running the Columbus Half...but I'm not as worried about my mileage and paces and workouts as obsessively as I did....thought I am still working hard and what a really good race! I really need to not getting so worked up about everything and just enjoy my running. I was starting to cross that line of not enjoying it as much as I should lately...which happened once in College for a while which threw me into a 2 year hiatus. I never intend to allow that to happen to me again, no matter what the circumstances. I could start to feel that coming on all year and had a feeling that would happen if I tried to push another competitive marathon out of me this year. Call it instinct. I think I run better when I'm chilled out anyway. My PR's in the longer distances always came off a long winter of "fun" running and mileage of between 40-50 miles. Funny huh? I'm trying to listen to my need a little better then what my brain tells me to do. Like I always say though, we'll see what happens.

About 1 month until the Presidential Election. That God all this stuff will be over. We need to move on and fix this darn country so we and our kids aren't paying for it in every which way.
Go Obama!!!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

A Brighter Week

This week has started off much better then last. After a terrible Thursday-Saturday, everything started to feel better. I still have a little cough, but I'm up and running...and super happy about it. Sometimes, when you get forced to be down for a little bit, it makes you appreciate running more.

So I went to the Akron races on Saturday. It was kind of weird since I felt like I was dreaming the whole time. I was in a fuzzy state. Jason and I got there around 7:25am and watched the start of the Women's 8K. I was so excited to be able to watch this race. It made me not feel so bad about running. I'll tell you, the end of that race was so exciting.....watching Katie McGregor come up so close to Sara Slattery at the end of the race. I was cheering for Katie (not to take anything away from the winner though) as she was the hometown girl, which I remember running against in High School. It was a good time.

I stayed and watched the 1/2 Marathon finishers and ran into a few people I knew. I really wanted to drive over to the 22-24 mile mark and watch the marathoners and relay people, but we couldn't figure out how to get there...plus I was feeling really sick at that point. I was kind of bummed, but we headed home and I crashed for pretty much the rest of the day.

So Sunday morning I woke up and felt better and went for a 6 miler. Not too bad. Monday I had a fantastic 8 mile run. I felt like I was floating. It was a truly great run. Tuesday was a 9 miler which was okay...I'm just glad to be out. I'm planning on a 70 mile or so week with at least 1 workout and 1 long run. I just registered for the Columbus 1/2 Marathon on Oct. 19th. It should be fun. Too bad there are no hotels left open in downtown Columbus though. I'll keep up the training until then for certain.

I'm not really sure about a marathon this year. There is so much going on with Jason's thesis in the next 2 months, that for us to leave for a few days would be a pain in the butt. Plus, I'm not sure if I'm in the right mental frame to run a marathon. I've kind of felt this way all year. I've run 5 marathons in a row (1 per year) and perhaps need a little break from one. I'm really not sure though. I'm putting in good mileage and workouts so I feel like I should just find one not too far and just run it for the heck of it.....then do a more serious on in the spring? We'll see. Too bad the Towpath Marathon wasn't a few weeks later. If anyone knows of some driving distance marathons around...let me know. Hmmm.....now that I actually thought about it, that doesn't sounds half bad. No pressure....just fun...plus, I may surprise myself.

Anyway, congrats to all those who raced this weekend. It was really awesome to watch it all go down! Hope everyone enjoys their downtime!!

Friday, September 26, 2008

O Well.....

So this little sore throat I got on Sunday night, turned into a nightmare this week. I really, honestly thought I would be better by now. I didn't think this was going to turn into a freak of a cold that would bump me on my ass. I even took days off in the beginning to make sure my body was using the energy to get well. No dice. Geeze o man. Today was the day I was suppose to feel all better, go for a short run, register for the Akron half, and toe the line in the morning. It's going to be a beautiful day for a race, nice course, lots of friends and family out. Bummer. Double bummer. My training has been great, seems like all the pieces were coming together too. Is this some type of cruel joke or something?
So in my down thoughts, I think to myself, what the heck am I doing? I mean, I pour so much heart and soul...and LOTS of time....into my training, and it seems like I just can't produce on the course lately. Training has been going well...but I just need a good race to show it is doing something. Don't get me wrong...I love being out and running...and training, but it's nice to get a reward on the race course from time to time. Especially when that's what your working for. I feel bad too because when I train this much, I'm usually tired quite and bit...and cranky from time to time, which is something Jason has to put up with. He carts me around to my races and deals with my foot rubs, getting ice for ice baths, and other strange running related things. I mean, I'm not getting any younger here either. I feel like people look at me and are like "Isn't it time for you to have kids or something?" I live in a neighborhood of stay at home moms and homes that have 3+ kids in each house. I can't help but feel like they look at me and think that...they even asked my husband when we were going to have kids. I digress. Not that I really care too much...but sometimes I think about that when I'm a bit down. You know how it all goes.
So, in a nutshell...it's been a really bad week. We all have them. This one happens to be on the last week I could have hoped for. Kinds of a mental bummer...along with the physical yuckiness going on. I guess now, I just have to try and get healthy and get back into the swing of things. Plan for another half in a few weeks. Hopefully, I can get it together.
Hopefully, I can make it out to the races tomorrow. There will be so many people participating in so many races, it would be nice to at least watch and cheer. It's just hard to get past the feeling that I should be out running with everyone. I feel like the little kid who didn't get picked for the team and has to sit the bench.
Don't mean to be a bummer today.....I know it's not the end of the world. Just a little release on my part. For everyone racing this weekend.......Good Luck!

Here's a little article to make you laugh...I just can't believe the things people come up with:

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Grouchy Pants

So, this is about what I feel like today...with added flu like symptoms. Why, why, why the week of my half marathon? Sigh.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Easy Come Easy Go

So, the Texas decision has been made for us. It's a no go! I'm kind of happy, kind of disappointed for many reasons. Jason went to visit Texas, and came back to an email that the funding was cut about 1 week later. I really felt bad about the whole thing as we were preparing for him to leave for 1 year. The professor told him the funding was gone...which still makes him wonder if he did something wrong on his visit. I don't think that was the case, because in the adult world, I would think he would have just told him flat out. It just kind of stinks that we went through all this stress for nothing. So the journey continues for a good Post Doc or Research position. He decided if it's a temporary position, he wants it to be within 5 hours so he can come home on the weekends. Awwww. Life happens for a reason I think....I really do. We'll see what comes our way.

On to running news, last week was a really solid week. Easy runs of 7-9 miles, a couple 2 a days, tempo run, workout, & long run. Tuesdays Tempo was awesome for me. 8 miles all ranging from 6:32-6:50. Most miles were 6:44. Last mile was 6:32. I felt almost too good and pushed it a bit the last mile. That doesn't happen too often. That was a good confidence booster.
I took Wednesday off which was nice and much needed.
Friday's workout:
2m w/u
1x1600 (400 rec) (6:17)
5x1000 (200 rec) (3:49, 3:53, 3:51, 3:52, 3:51)
1x1600 (400 rec) (6:14)
2m c/d
This was harder then expected workout for me. The times I think should have felt a bit smoother then they did. I'm in more of a marathon mode training so nothing should feel too fast...but I have my days. I still finished the workout as planned. The last 6:14 mile actually felt better then anything else which I'm guessing is from the 600m recovery.

Ran a long run Sun of 18 miles with a few cut down miles in the middle. The faster mile was 6:49. I have this crazy sweet tooth which is a hormonal thing, so I was thinking of chocolate cake at various points of the run. Mmmmm. I did have a fantastic breakfast with Salty to look forward to after the run. It was such a good time. I don't do things like that enough.
So the total miles for the week was 70.
On top of that I had 2 cakes I was working on Wed-Fri with a baby shower to attend Sat morning. I think all that put me over the top of workload. These cakes are a lot of hard work, especially when you are doing them in your "spare" time. We had a fish fry at our house Sunday evening too. By the time Sunday night rolled around....I was EXHAUSTED. I know I was crossing the line with how tired I was.

So....I wake up Monday morning with a sore throat. I felt it late Sunday night. Go figure. I try and rest up and eat well, but I apparently don't do that well of a job. This was to be a down week for me anyway, so I took yesterday off and napped, baked banana bread, and went to bed early. I still feel like poo. I can't blame anyone else for this but me. Argh. I think I have some crazy hormones floating around too as I think I can cry at the drop of a hat right now. (I'm not a cryer either) It just a crappy start to the week...which happens to be the week of the Akron Half Marathon. Well, I have a few days to get my crap together. I still need to register....heh. I'm going through a slight mental phase too I think. Hopefully, it will all work out.

See you all at the races!!!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Miles and Miles

The last week has been pretty smooth. I have upped my mileage successfully without breaking into pieces. I'm feeling strong for the most part and uninjured. I'll tell you though, for every 10 miles you add on per week, it seems like such a huge jump. At first it doesn't seem like a big deal, but the legs have been feeling it for a bit. You know, the heavy leg, feeling like you're shuffling, I want to go to bed feeling. I'm plugging along though.

So to recap, the past couple weeks, I ended up running 71 miles with 2 pretty solid workouts. This past week was a solid 75 mile week. I did 1 good Tempo run on Wednesday of 8 miles with all miles between 6:44-6:50....most of then seemed to sit at 6:46. Total time was around 54:13. Felt really good actually, even though I went in feeling a little tired with little sleep the night before. I was happy with the effort and how I felt for the most part. I'm really trying not to go too crazy on every run and workout. Sometime I get caught up in the moment though.

I ran a long run on Sunday which kind of was brutal for the last few miles. I ran all around Hudson and felt good for the first 10 or so miles, then stopped home for some drinks and a potty break, then finished of 8 miles for a total of 18. I didn't drink enough in the humidity and I was dying the last 3-4 miles. I hate when that happens. It kind of makes the whole run seem sucky even though most of it was pretty decent. I was so happy to see my Gatorade when I finished. I sat on the porch and drank all 64 ounces in glory.

Overall, I'm tired. I'm taking 1 day off this week and hope to hit around 70 miles. I thought maybe I'd do my long run of 16-18 miles on Saturday but I have a baby shower in the morning so it looks like Sunday is the day. Akron Half Marathon is on tap the following weekend. I'm hoping to do something good there.

In other news, I got my first real wedding cake order...whohoo!!! It's not until next August of 2009...but what the heck. I'm excited!

Also, Jason went and visited Texas A&M last week as well. He missed the hurricane by just a few hours and made it home safely. Thank goodness! We are still up in the air with what's going on. As of now, it seems if he goes, it will be for only 1 year...and he may just go and I stay. He's hoping he can work from home for a couple weeks at a time every other month or so. I don't know how those military people do it. They are gone for like 2 years without ever seeing each other. I guess you just cope with what your given, but it would be brutal. My husband means everything in the world to me...and we enjoy each others company, so I'm going to miss him if we go that route. Gush gush.

Until next time, I'm just going to enjoy today.....tired legs and all.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Building it up

I'm training for a marathon, I think. It's kind of funny, I haven't registered for one...yet....and don't really have a set training plan. In my mind, I think I'm running Philly Nov. 23rd. I want to see how the training goes through before I commit. If for some reason, things go sour, I'm not above pushing a marathon back to the spring. I just like having the few crappy winter months to chill out.

After the Crim, I switched to "Marathon Mode" training. This means, more (& longer) Tempo runs, increased mileage, & longer intervals on the track. Everything more so at marathon or half marathon pace. It seemed to work well last year when I PR'd at Akron. I'm hoping to be consistent as I think that it the key for me.

So....last week I ran 65 miles. Easy runs between 6-9 miles with a Tuesday 10 mile progression run (last mile was clocked at 6:23) and a Sat 6 Mile Tempo Run. (Avg 6:45 or so). This week I should be between 65-70 miles and I ran a good workout on Tuesday. 2x3200 w/ 400 rec. (6:31, 6:30 Total: 13:01) (6:21, 6:21 Total: 12:42)...then 1 Mile (6:01). Got it done early in the AM since I was having nightmares all night for some reason. I just couldn't sleep so I got up and decided to get the workout over with. I plan on doing a Tempo today or tomorrow of 6 miles again.

Hopefully, next week I can get the mileage around 75 and the Tempo to 7-8 miles. I'd like to build up to 10 or so eventually. Long runs I'd like to build to 22 with some marathon pace miles thrown in. The track workouts I'd like to get to something around 10x1000 (or something equivalent) with longer warm up and cooldowns. The point is the get in the mileage, get in a good workout...but not completely fry myself. I have started throwing in a couple second runs to loosen up and work on endurance as well. That is the plan....we shall see how it goes.

So far so good I guess. No major problems. Just a little tired here and there after workouts and a little stiffness. I'm hoping to build up and take a little breather around the Akron Half and see how it goes. I'd love to be running 100 mile weeks....but I don't think that is going to happen without me dying out.....darn Job & House & Hubby (just kidding!). I feel so lucky to be able to do what I'm doing. So until next time....I'm going with the flow :)

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Grim Crim

In a nutshell my race at the Crim 10 miler in Flint, MI sucked. It was one of the worst races I've run in my life. The only other one that can compare is 2004 Boston Marathon where it was 87 degrees and I walked a lot of it.

So Jason and I drove up Friday afternoon. I took the day off work....whoopie!! We got on the Turnpike and a semi decided to come into our lane and knock us into the shoulder. I almost had a heart attack. I guess another semi came up on a slow car and bolted into the left lane which caused the semi that almost hit us to come into our lane. I mean, we were doing 80+ and the thought of getting in a wreck that fast......arhhh. I guess it wasn't our time :)

So anyway, we got to La Blanc and headed to Flint to get my race packet. On the way back we found a little Mom and Pop Pizzeria and ate there. It was us and a 50th High School Reunion. It was a good time. The whole time I was thinking about how darn humid it was outside. I knew it would be a humid and hot race so I just braced myself.

So race morning, I woke up and got hubby out of bed. I don't usually sleep well at hotels and this was no exception. I put on my racing clothes, grabbed some nasty (like favored water) coffee and headed downstairs. Jason followed his nose to the breakfast bar and was in bliss. It was like the light shone down for him. Scrabbled eggs, sausage....waffles. O...we HAD to stop and eat. We were already running late....but I told him he had 5 minutes. That man scarfed down 2 waffles and a big meaty sausage muffin thing in like 3 seconds. I wanted to barf watching him. As long as he was happy.

So...fast forward to the start. Since we were running late, I only did 1.5 mile warm up instead of 2. I remember the weather guy saying it was between 75-80 with 90% humidity. When we walked to the start I was like "It's not so bad out here....what's all the fuss about?" As soon as I did the warm up I realized it was going to be a VERY long race. I was drenched from head to toe already. Plus I wasn't feeling as chipper as I had hoped anyway.

So, I just nearly get to the start position and the gun goes off. 15,000 or so people are off! My first mile was 6:34 which was okay. I was hoping to be running around 6:20-25 pace. That 6:34 felt like a 6:14. I missed the second mile. I was thinking I missed the 3rd and maybe even the 4th mile. Nope....mile 3 came up. O MY GOSH! I couldn't believe I was only at mile 3. I was laboring in my breathing....I wanted to die already. Are you kidding?

Honestly, the rest of the race was a total blur. I was struggling to finish. I made a conscious decision to slow down to the point that I could just try and hold on. I remember a few things though:
1) The frat boys who were offering Pizza, Donuts, and Beer (I remember thinking I wanted to barf all over them around mile 6 or 7)
2) The church choir singing some soprano song softly (I was not thinking nice thoughts....even though it was such a nice gesture on their behalf)
3) The never ending rolling hills which never quite made it on the second half of the elevation map which showed a substantial downhill from mile 6-10
4) The guy who passed out in someones front yard on top of their sprinkler at mile 7 or 8
5) The wheezing guy I ran with the WHOLE way
6) The lake I saw and seriously thought about jumping in
7) A pretty house with big round pillars (I love big homes with white pillars)]
8) The girl who pooped her pants....poor girl.....she kept on truckin along though
9) All the nice people with hoses
10) The blasted finish line

You could have rolled me down the hill to the finish for all I cared at that point. My calves were cramping like it was the end of a marathon. I came through my chip time in 1:09:48. I've ran tempo runs faster then that. Argh!
A nice man at the finish area was handing out Popsicles. I wanted to kiss him. I grabbed my metal, an ice cloth, & water. I waited in the finish area for Jason. I waited, and waited, and waited. It was 20 minutes of waiting. I figured he didn't see me, so I didn't want to leave. I finally saw him. He missed me finishing and was worried something happened. Heh....something happened all right.
I tried to be nice....but apparently I still came off kind of grumpy according to him. Um...SORRY. At least I TRIED to not be snippy. I decided to run a 2.5 mile cooldown. I did it....but it was awful. Totally pointless.

So we left to get back to the hotel....since they charge us a half a day if you leave 1 minute after 12. I was so pathetic I needed to sit down for a minute going back to the car. I felt so helpless with the feeling of nausea. Good times.

So, looking back.....I laugh. It was so horrid, it's funny. It's kind of a mental blow though. I'm worried about the Akron half. I don't want to blow up again. It's just such a horrible thing...and kind of embarrassing when people come out the watch you run.

On the plus side...Jason and I had fun. We got away for a little while...even if it was just Flint. Oh...and we got a great tour of 8 Mile. There was a detour which lead us through there. Once we got off on 8 Mile...there were no detour signs. We got lost, and had to stop and ask for directions. It was creepy.

If anything, it had to help my fitness in some way. It also made me tougher in some way I'm sure. Even bad races are fun in some way.

Once we got home....I was ready to chill out....and viola.....bees decided to hatch a nest in our attic and eat a small hole in our bedroom ceiling and die all over the floor. Good thing hubby shut the bedroom door before we left. More good times....that is for another blog entry.

Friday, August 29, 2008

And We Have Babies

My friend Jackie had her Twin Baby Girls Keira & Kaelyn this morning at 6:01 and 6:25am!! What a champ she is. She went in yesterday to get induced at 10:00 am so it's been a very, very long day. Everyone is doing well...and I'm so happy for their family. I'll post some pics as soon as I have some. I'm not going to bug them for a while until they get a little rested and recovered and are at home.

I'll post an update on my death race at Crim. Needless to day it was just terrible...but interesting to say the least. Good Times were had though :)

Monday, August 18, 2008

On the Fly

I usually have my whole "season" of running planned out, especially the races I'm going to run. Back in January, I had this lovely schedule all planned out and posted on my fridge. That ended up in the garbage as soon as my body was revolting on me most of the spring. I figured, "What the Heck!" I'll just go with the flow this year. It's been working well, but I'm so scattered on the races I'm going to run. I have to kick myself sometimes. I'm never sure if I'm going to run a particular race until about 3 days before. That's crazy to me. Look at me go....crazy me! Needless to say, I'm a typical type A, planner, high strung, "if you change the plans on me I freak" type of person. I just have to laugh when I think of my racing plans. My training is week by week as well. I keep telling myself, next week will be the down week....and it doesn't really ever happen. It's all just too much fun at the moment.

So anyway, I decided (after much flip flop between this, Crim, & the Perfect 10) to run the Canalway Classic 5K in Navarre on Sat. It was a great morning and a great course. Man, it's a small town though. It was a point to point course. I decided to run to the start line as a warm up. Jason brought his bike along and kept me company. Yippie!! I think he's trying to be nice on the running front for various reasons.
So, the registration went quickly, and I was off. I had a paper map so I wouldn't get lost. All of a sudden my sense of direction went funky on me. I think I got nervous knowing I would get to the start line about 5 minutes before the race (running 8 minute miles). This wasn't the best planning on my part...but o well.

I started asking Jason to look at the map and which way to go. Now, my husband has the WORST sense of direction EVER (God love him). You tell him "turn right" he'll go left. If you send him out and back....it's just out and around. I don't know what I was thinking. Well, the heavens opened up and one of the guys leading the race on the bike was there and I asked him which way to go. He lead me along and looked so surprised I was running the course for the warm up. I got a lot odd looks from the water crews like I was crazy. I mean...it wasn't THAT long!

So we got to the start and not 4 minutes later the race started. Ummm....I better allow more time next time if I plan on doing a longer warm up. I can't say I wasn't warmed up and ready to go through.

Race went off and it was a fast start. There was a lot of down hill and a small up hill leading onto the towpath. First mile was 5:43...yikes! I haven't ran a mile that fast in a long time. I felt great though and kept it rolling. I settled in with a group of guys and went through 2 miles in 11:52. I didn't look at my watch at the 2nd mile because I didn't want go mental. I think I got mental anyway because I kept thinking I was going to die or something. I told myself to chill a little and pick it up when I got off the towpath. I did just that. There was a small but steep hill right before mile 3....then I started to kick it in. I finished in 18:46....1st place. I was happy, but at the same time I think I setteled in too much and had more to give in this race. That is something I need to work on. Perhaps as I start incorporating tempo runs those will give me the mental strength and stamina I need.

So the definite plan for next weekend is the Crim 10 Miles in Flint, MI. I just registered a couple days ago and made hotel reservations. I'm excited about it. I'm up for a big race. It will be my first long race in a long time, but it's a real fitness test at the longer distance. Hopefully, it will go well. I tweeked my left foot tendon on my long run yesterday and don't walk well right now, but I ran without too much trouble this morning...so I'm not terribly worried. I've kind of been lazy about doing my foot strength stuff so...that's what you get when you run on the uneven trails. Gotta get the wobble board back out. It's always something isn't it? :)

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Just moving along

This post find me in much better spirits then the last post.
First off, we passed out ISO audit last Thursday which is a HUGE relief! As I said before, we were getting a new auditor as our scheduled auditor was sick. This ended up being a very, very good thing. This guys was local, which means less $ for us....and he was MUCH more laid back and practical about the whole thing then our previous auditor. Plus, he didn't make me sit with him all day long answering goofy questions.....nor did he write me up on anything. In a nutshell, it was a very good day that I'm glad is over.
The next good thing is I'm feeling much better. Man o man I felt like poo last week. It wasn't like a "lazy I don't feel like running" thing. It was like I feel like there is something seriously wrong with me, I'm not myself, my husband is getting worried sort of thing. I started the whole online doctor thing with Google...which is never a good thing. Ha ha. My husband cornered me at the end of the week and told me I have never seemed so out of it for so long and I really should just chill out or I'm going to die. Thanks. No seriously, I told him I was working on the chilling out thing. I do tend to listen to my body. Thus, I took a down week (sort of) and didn't do my planned workouts. I took naps after work....and went to bed earlier. I knew it was just stress and lots of running, working and minimal (as in 4-5 hours a night) or sleep. I was pretty certain there was nothing medically wrong. Well, as it turn out.....I'm feeling much better this week.
I did a nice long run this weekend (16 miles), easy run Monday, and a track workout yesterday. Track workout was 3 x (800, 400, 200) with 400, 200 400 rec. Times were all around 2:52-2:54, 80-81, 37-38. It was a hard workout because as you run faster with the shorter intervals, the lactic acid builds up in the legs....then you have to turn around and do the longer intervals again Arghhh. It went pretty well though. I was pleased. I wasn't pleased about the people who just don't really understand, or don't WANT to understand the rule about staying out of the first couple lanes if you're not running. Seriously, I squeeze by them in the inner lane, almost brushing their shoulders, breathing really loud so they get the point. It's a nice way of saying "MOVE OVER!!!!!" I don't even really mind the slower runners as much...but it's the people walking...letting their kids trail out into lanes 1-3. It never helps when they REEK of perfume either. Jeeze. I caught up with another running on my cooldown and we were having this discussion. Grrrr....people.
So, the plan for the rest of the week is getting some easy & steady miles in. I think I may run a race Sat. morning about an hour from my house (5K) which I hear is a very fast course. I'd like to get a fast 5K in....hopefully. I'd at least like to TRY and get a fast 5K in. Nonetheless, I'm pretty sure I'll be at this race. Wish it was closer....but o well.
I'm thinking next weekend I want to run the Crim 10 miler in Flint, MI. I planned on running it last year but it didn't' workout. I'd like to run a big race...plus I haven't don't a longer race in a really long time. I think it would be fun. It's about a 3.5 hour drove. Jason's not so thrilled it's in Flint, but I keep telling him they are going to let us loose in some shady area to get mugged or something. I'm on the fence on this one, but I'm kind of in the mind set I'm running it. So we'll see.
Lastly, on the moving front. Still don't know what's going on with that. I can actually talk about without freaking out so that's a step in the right direction. My mom is another story. She's afraid she'll never have grandkids or something. Or we'll forget about them. Remember, I work with my parents, so I see them everyday. Jason and I have been talking about a lot of different options so that makes me feel better. We'll see how it works out. One way or another, it will have to. Ahhh....life's journeys.
Oh yeah, my friend Jackie is going to have her Twins in the next week or so. She's not due until Sept, 9th....but she's going in the next week. That girl is lugging around almost 13 pounds in her belly...and she's still going to work. What a champ!!!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

High Stress Area

I have a good life. I really do. I'm happy and content with how everything has, and currently is, panning out. I'm a big believer if something isn't broke, don't fix it.
We'll, my wonderful husband has just thrown me a curve. He is finishing up his Ph.D as an Engineer this winter and had gotten a few offers for jobs. He intends to stay in academia and pretty much needs to do a Post Doc assignment. The offer he is thrilled to have received is located at Texas A&M in College Station, TX. Arhhhhhhhhhh.

I've never had a problem with the thought of moving in my earlier life. I bounced around to Wisconsin and Seattle during college for work assignments with no problems. I even thought we would move right out of college. It worked out we stayed. Our lives were slowly being build into what they are today. We have a home I am in love with, a good job at the family business, and all our family and friends nearby. I get to take my dog to work, stop by mom & dad's, help out the sister in law with the new baby, take dinner to my best friend who is having twins, play with nieces and nephews, have a really cool annual 4th of July Party....with all this, I also have all the freedom in the world with my job. I also run a couple small businesses on the side....for fun. There are countless wonderful parks nearby, 3 tracks within a 1 mile radius, and lots of runner friends. So, this is everything that makes me happy....other then my husband (obviously).

This Post Doc is for 2 years. We'd have to sell our home and everything and lug everything to Texas for 2 years without knowing where we are going next. I won't have a job, and post docs don't pay all that well. Talk about a downgrade in life....not to mention the confusion with our cat & dog. Plus it's hot as hell there.

I'm kind of avoiding the conversations with my husband. I get kind of crappy when he talks about it. I know that's bad...but let me have my moment, okay? It's not easy for him either. His dad is sick and he has a huge family and friends as well. I do have to say though, this is the next natural progression in his life. My life is set pretty much. I do understand that in the long term this can be a very good thing....especially for his goals. I would hate to see him 10-20-30 years from now mad for not making the best of himself. I'm not a selfish person, I try not to be, this just stresses me out...a lot. I hope it all works out. I hope it works out so we are all happy.

So on the running front....I've been doing pretty well. Running is my sanity keeper at the moment. Last week I did a really hot workout on the track which consisted of 6x800, 400 rec. All were 2:51-2:55...not bad for the muggy conditions. I then ran a race on Sunday which was okay. I won with an 18:55 but I just felt okay. I slept very little on Wed & Thurs due to a groomsmen cake I was working on and a late night Friday at a wedding. Saturday I did a nice run at the Towpath and saw some of the runners in the BR 100 race which was inspiring. Sunday I was just tired...but I was happy I toughed it out and didn't mentally give in. I think the course was a bit slow.....but that's all good. I broke the course record by like 40 seconds which is always a nice bonus. It was a good time all around.

This week is a little rough. Mondays easy 7 mile run went fine. Nothing special. I did my morning 4 mile easy run in preparation for a 400 rep workout yesterday...but around lunchtime my throat was starting to bother me...then I got achy. I decided with that and the humid conditions, it spelled trouble. I went home, took a nap, then went for a nice bike ride with my husband. Today, my throat still is bothersome and I feel like poo. I think I am just a little run down....maybe my body is trying to fight something off. I'll play it by ear.

I can't wait for tomorrow to be over. We are having our annual ISO Audit at work....and I do ALL the ISO stuff. Our scheduled auditor, whom I've worked with the past 2 years, had a medical emergency, so we get a new guy. That is another super stressor. I worked my butt off getting all this stuff in order...and I hope he's not a jerk. These auditors can make life very difficult if they want to. It's me, him and the manual...all day long. Him picking at every little thing we do, how we document, and grilling me on our procedures. Sounds fun huh?

So enough of my rambling, but it makes me feel better to vent out a little. I'm not one to complain too much (at least I try not to)...but sometimes we need a little vent.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Mileage Building

I'm in the process of raising my mileage in, what I believe, is a slow manner. I have this plan of trying to keep a stable higher, for me, mileage and try and maintain for a while so my body can adapt. I kind of train through the 5K's and 5 Milers, but still hope to run well at those races. The plan is for this to carry me into the fall and perhaps run a decent marathon in the late fall, early winter. We'll see how that plan goes.
For now, I'm kind of tired. I've been running around 60 miles and I can start to feel the mileage. I'm not complaining because that is pretty much the point of what I'm trying to do. I'm trying to walk the line correctly. I do everything I can do put really good efforts into my workouts. The only problem I have is that, for one, the heat just makes me melt, two, I don't get enough sleep.
I really try and go to bed at 10:00pm...that never happens though. I usually get to sleep around 11:00 or 11:30 and wake up at 5:30 to run. I end up having mini meltdown for a day during a busy week if I keep that schedule up. I got smart and tend to do a good job of listening to my body and adjust my schedule if I'm having one of those days. The heat just compounds everything though.
So anyway, this was another decent week of training. I hit 60 miles. Easy runs ranging from 6-9 miles with 1 workout and long run. The 12 miles workout was a bit of a challenge as I headed out to the trails for a dynamic run of roughly 6:00 miles with 7:45-8:00 miles alternating. It was POURING rain. I did the warm up, the did my first 2 miles of the workout. It was so bad that the ground was turning into mud and I was sinking and slipping on the bridges. Fun.
I decided to hitch a ride home with my mom, who was running with the dog, and finish on the treadmill. That was unbelievable torture. I did around 6:05 for the hard miles and it felt every bit as long. Booooring. I was so happy to have finished it. The treadmill killed me though.
The next day I had a deep tissue massage. I try and get one every 6-8 weeks if I can. The woman is great. She's this little, petite, young lady, but she packs a mean punch to the muscles. We usually talk to whole time as this is not a pleasant massage. In the end, it loosens everything up. She always warns me, that massages like this is like a hard workout and to take it easy the next day.
On to the next day. One of the worst runs of my life. Seriously. I wanted to curl up on the sidewalk and cry. I'm not really a baby when I don't feel well, but this was of another world. I don't know what was going on with that, but I think the workout and massage did me in.
I finished off the week with a splendid long run at the Towpath which was beautiful. It was 15 miles of bliss. I love runs like that.
So it was an on and off week with how I felt, but it was a good one. Monday was my exhausted day so I just biked a little. I'm planning on doing about 60 this week with the workout I did yesterday and a couple doubles. I'm thinking doing doubles after hard days may help. Less miles at once, but keeping up the mileage overall. I'll see if that works at all. I'm planning on running a race Sunday and doing my long run on Friday. I have a wedding Friday in which I'm making the groomsmen cake so we'll see how it all goes.
Life is never boring!!

Monday, July 21, 2008

Heat, Humidity & a PR

So I broke down and ran the Johnnycake Jog 5 Mile Race in Painesville. This was the first race I ran when I was 14 years old. I ran a 39:02 (I think) and my mom ran 1 second faster then me that year. I've ran it more then any other road race. It's a big deal on the far east side of town. I also happen to hate the race due to the fact that I have NEVER raced well there. It's like a wicked step sister slapping me....and I keep coming back again and again.
So I had a couple people ask me if I was running it. I was thinking about it...kind of...but without too much persuasion, I decided to run it again. The thing I REALLY love about the race is I get to see all kinds of runner friends I only see once in a while. Plus the competition is really good there. I do have to give props to the organization as well. It's a great event.
So to make a long story short, me, Jason, and the dog headed to Painesville for the event. It was sooo blasted humid. The temp was lik 78 with some ungodly humiditiy. I wanted to run sub 31 as my PR was 31:54 (which isn't a strong PR in this distance for me as I don't really race the 5M/10K distnace often). I toed the line after a nice warm up with a few friends and also ran into an old male teamate from college....awesome! He wanted to run sub 30.....I wasn't going to set the bar that high just yet for myself.
Off the race went.....Mile 1 6:08. I felt decent. It was just humid. The 2nd mile was hilly compared to the rest of the pancake flat course and it was 6:31. Bummer. I thought I was running faster, especially since I was passing tons of people. 3rd mile was some downhill 6:10. I remember thinking sub 31 was probably not going to happen as I had a long 2 miles left and it was HOT and I was breathing in what felt like water. Okay...so mile 4 took FOREVER to come and it was a 6:05. Yikes...I didn't think I was running that good of a pace. I got into a good, comfortable (for a race) groove and went with it. I remember thinking the last half mile that I wanted to sit on the side of the road, kick my feet up, and have a cold, minty, mohito. This was a serious thought at this point...no joke. So anyway, I was told I was the 4th woman overall. I saw a woman in front of me and easily passed her. I could hear her labored breathing....not that mine probably sounded all that great. I passed plenty more people and saw the finish line. I saw 30:40 and kick it up a gear. I crossed the finish line in 30:53....3rd place overall. I was HAPPY! I looked at my watch and saw I ran a 5:57 last mile. That made me feel really good. I'm pretty excited about how the race panned out as it was my first good race at the "Jog"...and it was a big PR. More importantly, I felt really good...even considereing the hot & humid racing conditions.
I'm so glad I did this race. I needed something like this to boost me and make me feel like my training is working in some way. The last few workouts were pretty tough and I've been ramping up my mileage.
After the race, I did a nice cooldown with quite a variety of people...including my puppy dog. A good portion was with Salty.....who continues to inspire me with all the running she is doing while pregnant. It makes me be not so afraid to get pregnant. I'm such a chicken.
So I'm sitting here at work as our offices are being renovated, the smell of paint fumes overcoming me and reading the New Herald. It's really nice how they cover the race with all the pictures...but there is something so not glamourous about having a head shot taken of you right after a hot 5 Mile race. I swear, if people I haven't seen in a while, and see this picture... they are gonig to think "What the hell happend to her?!?" (Which bring me to the topic of how different runners look as normal, everyday people....that's another blog.)
O well...at least I ran a PR :)

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Right Direction

Well, the crazy Fourth of July is over!! It's one of the busiest weekends for us since we have an annual BBQ at our house. We have like 60 people over and I cook a lot of the food myself which just killed me this year. We rent a huge smoker and cook all kinds of meat, but that's not my job thank goodness. I was on my feet for 2 straight days not counting cleaning, shopping, & running around. It was a great success and lot of fun. We don't mind doing it for all our family and friends as long as they come and enjoy what we do. I must say though, it's so nice that it is over.

So on the running front, things are coming along. I did a workout last Tuesday which was long, but went really well and gave me some confidence in my training progression.
2m w/u & c/d
4x (800, 400) (400 rec jog between each)
The times were around 38 for the first batch of 200's to get the legs moving, 2:53-2:54 for the 800's, 80-84 for the 400's, and 34-35 for the last batch of 200's. It was a tough workout to do by myself, but it went really well. I was able to keep up the paces and never really felt like I was dying or fading. I gave it all I had on the last 4 200's. I need to get some speed in these legs! Total miles for that workout was 10.

Another key day was the Firecracker 5K in Hudson. It was a nice and cool morning to start, but warmed up a bit with the sun as the race started. I was kind of in a zone and rushed since I had the party to get ready for, but I had one goal in mind...I really wanted to run a sub 19. The start had about a 400 meter hill, with the rest of mile 1 and 2 flat. Mile 3 had a large 400-800 hill and incline with a downhill finish. There was a girl, who apparently runs for Dayton, who just blasted out mile 1. She must have been cooking around 5:30 or so, because I ran 5:57 and she was so far ahead I couldn't see her. I ran with my running friend Tracy (whom I ran with in college as well) and past her at mile 2. The last mile, I looked up and the girl in first place was now close. I kept a pretty constant pace, so she must have slowed waaaay down. I thought I could catch her, but the uphill was rough at the end, and I ran out of space to close in any more. All in all I felt great. I ran an 18:51 and was very happy with the effort. At least I'm heading in the right direction.

The rest of the weekend was hectic as we had our party and I managed to get in my Saturday run and long run on Sunday. We had a Sunday morning birthday party for my niece who turned 4 as well....sheesh! What a weekend!! I'm beat!

Friday, June 27, 2008

Good Week

This week was a relatively good week for me. I don't toss that phrase around too lightly.....especially in the running department.
I decided after 3 weeks of building up some mileage, I needed a week of doing a little less to allow my body to adapt. It works for me. I thought about waiting until next week to do that since I'll be racing the annual 4th of July race but my body was telling me otherwise.
I was going to run a night race last Friday, but I had a crazy week that was way to over scheduled, and was just too tired. I'm glad I didn't since I got in a nice 8 miler Friday. Toward the end of the run, a girl pulled up next to me in a Jeep, and I though they were going to yell at me for something...but it was one of the girls I Coached. It was so great to see her! Nice surprise mid run. This led into a really good Saturday workout at the Towpath. It was a workout I HATED in College, but I thought I was ready to give it a go again. It was a 6 mile Dynamic run consisting of around 6:00 pace for the hard efforts and 7:00 for the medium efforts. This workout is so hard because it's not like you really get a recovery. 7:00 is a good clip after a 6:00 mile. I'm happy to report the workout went well. I really wanted to go 6:05 or sub 6:00 (if I was feeling it) on the last mile, but a guy on a bike struck up a conversation with me...the whole last mile. It was a nice conversation, with a really nice guy...but O MY GOSH...I was trying to run a sub 6:00. He couldn't have possibly thought this was a normal, easy run for me! Last mile ended up 6:15. O well. Next time.
Long run on Sunday...then I pooped out Monday and biked. I was beat up. Easy run Tuesday morning then a good workout on Wednesday. Mile reps on the trail. 6:20, 6:12, 6:08, 6:04, 6:05. Needless to say, I was really happy with this workout. As an added bonus, I felt awesome I never felt terribly strained. I hope this translates into faster race times....I really hope!!
Funny thing about that workout was there was a couple, in their 40's or 50's making out the whole time on the trail. Loop after loop after loop, they were there. They were my midpoint marker :) It was slightly annoying though since they were pretty much on the trail and I ran about 5 inches from them around a corner.
The last couple days were an easy 7 and 9 miler which I did this morning. I'll be really busy baking an order for a Bridal Shower so I wanted to get all my running done for the day today. Tomorrow is my hubby's birthday!!! I have to bake him a cake too while I'm at it.
I think I'll take the day off tomorrow and round out the week with a 12 miler.
Hopefully, I can kick it up a notch again the next few weeks and feel good.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Holy Hill

Yesterday I had my first workout with a group of people in a really long time. I honestly think it's been years. My schedule kind of stinks as I'm pressed for time all the time. Yes, I'm a Type A who tries to cram a weeks worth of things into 1 day. So anyway, it makes it hard to run with groups.

At the Flag Day Race, I came across a running friend who invited me to run with their group for a speed workout at Pen Glen on Tuesday. It was perfect because I usually head out that way on Tuesdays since my parents live there. My mom runs with the dog, I get my workout in....good times.

I met up with the group yesterday and it was 3 guys a 1 other girl. These people are seriously good. The girl is a consistent sub 17:00 5K runner...and the guys good too. I was the slower one in the group...but that's cool. I like having something to work for.

We did a 3 mile warm up, then the guys marked off 400 meters from the bottom of a huge hill, to the top with about 100 meters of flat at the end. The whole workout was to be 8x400 uphill with 400 meters down hill rec. The deal was to start out slower and pick up the pace...going almost all out the last 100. Heh. After the first one, it was more like survive through this workout. We all laughed. I wasn't actually too far behind. The guy in from of me was only a couple seconds ahead by the end, while the first people were about 10. Not bad. Time for me ranged from 1:38-1:41 with a 1:33 first one and 1:44 7th one. It went pretty fast thought it was really tough. The cool down was 2 miles and it was so nice to chat with the other girl....JK. My legs were Jello....but I was so happy with the day (other then the mean lady with the dog).

So, all in all, it was a great workout with a great group of runners. It's interesting to note how different it is to run with people who are more serious and competitive, rather then running just for fun. I guess we all do it for fun, but some are more competitive then others. It was nice. It kind of put me back into focus. It's like, everyone shows up and we are there to get a job done. Hopefully, I'll get a chance to workout with this group on Tuesdays more.
I think I'll really make an effort to take people up on offers to run with them. It's not that I don't want to, I just get so busy and find odd times to squeeze my runs in. I think it would be worth the extra effort though.

Friday, June 13, 2008

I'm not even really superstitious

So, I decided to not post for a while because every time I would post something I would get hurt again. Seriously. Last post I was on a positive note, then the next day my right foot was on the DL. That was a bummer. I'm thinking it was from the overcompensation from the left foot injury. I decided I needed a break from writing about my running life and maybe get the stars aligned in my favor. I'm really not superstitious, but in desperate time.....you know how the saying goes.
Okay...so....dare I say.....I think my body is doing well. After being sketchy with my mileage and workouts to baby my broken body, I think I'm on my way down the path I intended to be down about 3 months ago. I'm getting into the 50 miles or so a week range and am able to handle it. Now, I need to start getting my butt in gear and start doing some good workouts.
To sum it all up, I ran 2 4 mile races. By the way, what's up with the 4 mile race? I've never ran one before, and then there were 2 in a row? Odd distance. Anyway, the first one was good, but tough for me since it was my first hard effort in a while. I ran 25:28 (I think) and was pretty happy with that. Second race a couple weeks later was 25:17 and I wasn't as happy because I felt I never really pushed myself. Life could be worse though. It gave me some motivation.
After that race I had to take a few days off because my foot swelled up like a baseball which freaked me out to no end!! Those few days did a world of good and suddenly everything started to heal for good. Thank goodness!!
So after a few workouts which I probably ran too fast for me at this point, I was feeling pretty good and ran my favorite local race of the year. The Flag Day 5K. I got to see my running friends, which include Salty, who is pregnant and running like a champ. I really hope when I'm pregnant I can keep up like her. I also, saw some running friends I haven't seen in a long time...and I think I even may catch a workout with them on Tuesday. I'll probably be the slow one in the group, but that is good for me. I ran a 19:13 and was pretty happy with it. Not thrilled, but happy with my first 5K in a really long time. My legs feel so sloooow in a 5K. I know with a little speed work I can get into that groove where you are racing fast and feel fast....and good. I'd really like to break 18:00 this year. We'll see how things round up.
So in a nut shell, that is a quick update on my running. This past week was the Flag Day race, and a few easy runs all in the 7-8 mile range. I decided to switch up my mini workout today (Friday) with my recovery day tomorrow since the weather is suppose to be cooler. I don't fare too well in the heat...but who does right?
I'm just so happy to be running as a whole person again!!!

Oh yeah, so, I'm a baking freak right now. I started doing baby and wedding showers and somehow I'm booked for the next month. I guess my stuff tasted good enough for people to want more. What a relief that my food doesn't taste like dirt (which anyone who cooks for others worries about). Whohoo!!!!!!!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Where does the time go?

I'm looking at my last, kind of pointless, post and realized it was 3 weeks ago! Seriously, where does the time go?
I'm going through the phase of everything being REALLY busy. I don't even know what it is, the days just fly by.
I actually have some running news to report...Whohoo!!
I've been slowly building up my mileage over the last4 weeks. 35, 40, 43, 46. It's been progressing nicely with minimal discomfort. I'm running 5 days a week with at least one day of cross training (2 if I'm feeling good). The weather has been just wonderful and I've been loving my runs. I'm just grateful that I wasn't injured while all this nice weather is going on!
I did my first workout in FOREVER last week (2 workouts actually).
Tuesday was 3 miles repeats on a really hilly, rocky trail I like to run for strength. It went pretty well, expect for the last loooong hill that made me want to vomit. I ran 6:32, 6:35, 6:28 with a good paced mile up in the opposite direction back. I thought about doing a 4th rep, but I figured this was my first effort back, and my heart rate was going pretty high, so 3 would be fine for the day. Total miles for the day was 8.
Fridays workout I actually got to do in the morning and it was pretty good. 4x miles reps on the track with a 400 jog (800 after the second just for a little mental break). Splits were 6:18, 6:17, 6:20, 6:16. I was really happy with this effort. Totals miles for the workout was 9.
I'm in the process of trying to figure out how to work my training at this point and what races I want to run. So far, I know I need to work on my stretch and stamina. Speed to follow after I develop those a bit first. We'll see how it all plays along.
I keep a parental eye on my foot since it can get sore. I have a finicky tendon on the top that gets sore along with the previous area that was hurt before. Ahhh, the joys. I'm a core work, stretching machine in order to try and avoid any other issues. I do what I can.
So, I'm just happy to be able to write about some running I've been doing. Hopefully, the times will come down, the body will cooperate, and I will have some good old fun this summer and fall. We will see what the cards will bring.

Wednesday, April 2, 2008


"Fed chief Ben Bernanke now offers Congress a darker view of the economy" There may be a recession in our future.

Seriously, what planet are we on? There MAY be a recession? They must think people are stupid. Perhaps they are in there own little happy world or something. Call it what you want.
Anyway, that is my no running related 2 cents for the day while I kill some time.

Went for a run yesterday and it was wonderful even though it was some crazy winds and pelting rain. Being off from running for while sure makes me appreciate running so much. Foot is feeling good today after 3 straight days of running. Going to hop on the bike today for some cross training.
Racing is so far off my radar right now, but I'm hoping all that comes back quickly...especially as the weather gets nicer.

That's all for today. No real point...just a little bored.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Happy Spring

Easter and Opening Day have come and gone, and it's sort of is starting to feel like spring. It's windy as heck today, but warm....I'll take it I guess.

Speaking wind, that, out of all the elements, is my least favorite to run in. I can handle heat, cold, rain, snow...but I HATE wind. I wonder what most runners think about their last favorite element to run in. Just a thought.

Injury update. My foot is finally starting to heal itself back up. I'm starting to run a bit more. Oh the struggles of running again when being away from steady running, even for a short while. I have pretty much no range of motion in my hips. Last Friday I did a 6 miles and felt like an old creaky lady running down Main Street. My hips and quads were sore while I was still compensating a little too much for my foot for fear of re injury.

Sunday went much better. I went ahead a drove down to the Towpath and ran 7.5 miles and felt really good (relatively speaking) except for a really sore tendon on the top of my foot. That is normal when I start running so I wasn't worried. Seriously, I don't know what pace I'm running nor do I want to know or care. I know since I kept up with the cross training, core, & lifting, it will all come back pretty quickly. It just so hard and frustrating to get "started" again....wahhhh....enough crying already. I really am just so happy to be out and running again.
Hopefully my foot doesn't do anything stupid and I say injury free for a while at least.

Now my glutes are murderously sore like they were at the end of my marathon cycle. I have a massage scheduled for this Saturday that I'm looking very much forward too even though I think it will be more pain then anything. I leave feeling great though. It's the reward the counts. I'll have to remember that when I'm pregnant someday.

Speaking of pregnant, I made the stupid mistake telling everyone how I had this awful heartburn, nausea, and exhaustion last week, therefore allowing people to "diagnose" me as perhaps being pregnant. No one wanted to listen to the fact that I just came back from Vegas and got no sleep all last week, ate ham that was making me sick, and had a slightly runny nose. I think it's wishful thinking on some peoples part. Kind of funny if you think about it. I'm magically feeling better now that I got some sleep and stopped eating the Easter ham. HELLO PEOPLE. Note to self, keep issues to myself. It's always best to just keep the mouth shut.

Anyway, hopefully this will be a good week and I can keep up with the running. It's kind of a bummer that I won't be running the races I planned on , but maybe some good will come out of this in the long run. Hopefully, the weather will be a little nicer soon too!

Monday, March 24, 2008

Vegas & Heartburn

I have this case of heartburn today and it really sucks. I get a random spout of heartburn like once a year for no apparent reason. I haven't eaten anything different and have no idea why this happens but it feel like someone is gutting me from the inside. Yum.
Hubby and I went on a trip to Vegas and it was great. Really great. We realized this was our first vacation alone since we got married. Every vacation involved being with either family or friend. Not that it's a bad thing, it's just nice to be alone.
We were there for 5 days. A bit too long for Vegas but what the heck...right? Typical day involved me waking up at 6:00am because I just couldn't sleep anymore. I went to workout in the dinky workout room. We went and ate an overpriced breakfast (walking about 3 miles to find what sounded good), got sucked into a casino which took my money because I get all hyped up over the flashing lights on the slots, then go shopping at stores that I would have to take a second mortgage on my house to buy anything at. By then it's somehow like 4:00 and we go take a break, go back to the casino and do something fun in the evening. I guess it sounds boring now that I write it down, but it wasn't at all. I swear we walked 10 miles a day. There were 2 big events I particularly enjoyed.
1) Dinner and Emeril's Delmonico Steakhouse. Nothing like having 5 servers per table with steak that melts in your mouth like butter. O my gosh...I recommend that place. It's not cheap, but it's worth the splurge.
2) Hiking at Valley of Fire National Park. We rented a car for the day and went hiking. It was very cool.
Next time we hope to do more of the hiking and a little less of the gambling. It was a good time. Now I'm back 10 times more tired then when I left....and with heartburn. O well.

As far as running goes, it has been minimal, but I work out quite a bit more when I'm not running so that usually ends up being a good thing. I finally got the the treadmill and ran 5 pain free miles yesterday which is a great start. I'm just taking my good old time so I'm not back at square one cursing the world out with my foot in a bucket. Ahhh...the joys.
It looks like the racing team on one is on the outs...boooo. I can't blame the person who is running it though. I can't believe they were able to keep it running (no pun intended) for so long with how busy there life is. The upside is I can run for Vertical Runner and wear their stuff (if they let me).
Did I mention the cupcake shop right by Vertical Runner??? Mmmmmm. I'm sure that would help this heartburn.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Wool.....Who Would Have Thought

I went over to Vertical Runner a couple weeks ago to find some new insoles for my shoes. I was hoping that it would help my foot/achilles situation. I just so happened to walk in when they had this 60% off sale. Seriously, that is like giving a little kid free reign in a candy store, or toy store. Whoppie!!! This little store is just that, little, but it is the BEST running supply store I have ever been in. ...and I've been in a lot....all over the US.
Anyway, I came across this really skinny looking shirt, skinny like paper thin. The nice guy who works there proceeded to jump in and tell me it's wool. He also told me if I never ran in wool, I have to try it. I thought about it and held it in my hand while a walked around the rest of the store and sifted through pretty much every shred of clothing available. I wanted something different, and something more of a base layer so I decided to try it...along with a couple other things. This shirt cracks me up because, like I said, it's paper thin....with these little needle points that look almost like holes. I showed it to a couple people and every one had the same reaction....where the rest? It retailed for $88.00!!! Yikes!!! But, yes, 60% off....I'll take it.
So, one my foot got a little better I went out for a run. This guy was right. This is like the broken in sweatshirt you wear around all day. It was so super soft against my skin, and absolutely no itch. You wouldn't even believe it was cool. The great thing about it was, it didn't stink like a lot of the tech fabrics so after a sweaty run. Also, if you don't get a chance to shower immediately after a run, there is still no stick, and you don't get cold. This was work every penny, even at full price I think. This is my favorite new shirt. I don't say that very often.
So , for those of you that are looking for a new running shirt, go for wool. It sounds odd, but it's the best new thing I've tried in a long time.
Oh yeah...if you visit Vertical Runner....there is a cupcake shop just down the street within walking distance that is a MUST if you have a sweet tooth.

Monday, March 3, 2008

The Magic Bullet, GT Xpress, & Politics

When I'm hurt, I pretty much get real with myself and know when to stop running and start cross training. As hard as it may be, I have matured and developed the self control to do this....even though I have to remind myself not to fall to pieces during the process.
My calve, heel, achilles area have been hurting for the past couple weeks, so I was forced to get in on the good old cross training equipment. The thing that cracks me up, it what's on TV....and how much of it I actually listen to. I have a tiny little TV in my basement, along with a REALLY old treadmill, and a simple stationary bike. I have some weights scattered around too. For an added accent, I have a lovely washing machine and dryer near the furnace and water tank. Great scenery.
Anyway, there are so many infomercials on TV, especially Saturday and Sunday morning...along with enough Politics to made you go numb. I only get 4 or 5 channels on my TV so I don't have many options. The funny thing is, I actually get really into whatever is on the TV. I noticed that lately. I got so into Fox's (yes FOX TV....ewww...no options here, remember?)) Chris Wallace politics on Sunday morning. I was spewing all the info on Hillary, Obama, McCain, and anything else to my hubby at breakfast. I was like the freakin AM news or something. I'm not normally a politics junkie. I'm the one who usually changes the channel. It almost feels kind of good to be in "the know" even it's all pretty goofy.
Also, the amount and type of product being sold on TV is hilarious to me. They still have the good old Magic Bullet on TV and the GT Xpress. I'm actually getting sold on that little thing. I think it has something to do with the fact that I sit on my bike for what seems like hours and watch the little lady make omelets, cinnamon rolls, and cake in 7 minutes....O my gosh, YES 7 MINUTES...WOW. If I act now, I get one payment cut from the price and get an extra one for free. Hmmm....maybe I'll get a free set of knives too. Who knows. This cross training thing can get expensive if it last a while....especially if I can tune into QVC or something. Maybe I should switch to my I Pod. Maybe I should get unhurt.
Actually, I did 8 miles straight at pretty much normal pace on the treadmill yesterday which was awesome. My foot had a small amount of ache and it didn't get worse which is a definite positive. My spirits were much better after my run yesterday. I was starting to get pretty down on everything after looking at my running log and seeing the history of the last 4 weeks. I know better then to do that, but I did anyway. I was thinking of taking a week or two off and starting over if things keep popping up to interrupt my running. Hopefully, I'm in the clear now and I can be off on my way of trying to rebuild again.
Maybe I can buy that cool little Pilate's Machine I saw on Saturday morning for only 4 payments if $49.95 to help me with that. Maybe not.